Sunday, March 15, 2015
A series of events over the last three months has completely changed the world as I knew it. I will admit, that this may sound overly dramatic considering the state of our planet at this time in history but right now, it’s all about me.
It all began in late December of last year, just before the holidays. A long-term relationship unexpectedly and abruptly ended for reasons that I do not fully understand, and likely never will. With that, I lost not only a person I cared for deeply but also a lifestyle that we’d built and shared together.
Next, one of my beloved cats, Rudy, became ill. He went completely blind, quite suddenly, and quickly deteriorated from there. He succumbed to the rapidly growing brain tumor within a very short, eight week period. The ‘Kingon Death Howl’ that came out of him before he collapsed into a coma on that final day still haunts me.
Then, came the car accident. A vehicle that I had owned for ten years became a total write-off in an instant. I’ll recover from the physical injuries but the experience has left me mentally and emotionally shattered. I only have the rental car for a few more days, and finding a replacement vehicle with the money the insurance company is giving me will be the next hurdle to overcome. And don’t get me going on the frustrations of dealing with an insurance company!
It’s been difficult to stay positive through it all. Some days are more challenging than others. Don't get me wrong, I’m happy, even delighted, to be alive to have the opportunity to rebuild my life and reinvent myself. There could have been a much different outcome that I’m trying not to focus on. I’m not certain where my new path will take me or who I will meet along the way but it will be full of new adventures, new friendships and new experiences.
And yes, I’ve heard all the clichés. I know that everything happens for a reason and that when one door closes, another opens. I just wish the reason would reveal itself to me NOW, and the door will open for me soon (today would be good). If the old saying is true and bad things come in threes, than I should be done, right? I'm ready for the GOOD things that come in threes now.