I used to love dancing. I used to love going for long walks in the woods. In fact, there are a lot of things that I would still love to do, if I was able.But I'm not.
My body is failing me; not keeping up to the active mind that I have. And certainly not keeping up with my hopes, dreams and desires; all the things I 'want' to do.
I thought we did not get 'older', but were supposed to get 'better'. That's what the commercial said, right? And what about Freedom 55? What kind of cruel joke was that on a naive and unsuspecting public? *smile*
One thing that I have learned, and finally accepted, is that older is not necessarily better. Older is definitely 'different', and sometimes different can be better. But it is always different than anticipated or imagined.
Frankly, it's not what I expected at all, nor is it how I envisioned my life would be. The dream is not playing out in reality. The movies have it all wrong. People do not always live happily ever after and maybe we're not supposed to.
Those ups and downs help us to learn and grow; expands our horizons; introduces us to new concepts; brings new people into our lives; points us down a different path.
It's time for me to learn to dance a new dance; to find creative ways to add joy to my life; to venture out in a new direction; to share my love with others; to help as I am able.
So, come along and dance a new dance with me. We'll have a blast!
Thats a great blog Bonnie, it was once mentioned in a star trek movie, what if we had the chance to be able to take away all of the negative pains and sadness we all hold in our hearts. Dr. McCoy allowed that to happened, but Captain Kirk decided he needed his because that is what makes us who we are,...But I love the thought of dancing a new dance.
ReplyDeleteI agree, our experiences both good and bad, make us the people that we are today and will continue to change us tomorrow.
DeleteI know what you mean. I used to love to bowl, dance all night and take long walks in the woods. Since my fibro, I can still do all those things but I pay for it later. Looking for more sedentary hobbies is what led me to making jewelry. It's my new dance.
ReplyDeleteAnd you make lovely jewelry, my friend. I see the photos on Facebook all the time.
DeleteUnderstood. I've suddenly developed a bum knee at this, the busiest time of year. I've been laid up on the darn couch for the past several weeks and if anything, it's only gotten worse. Christmas is in the hands of the guys this year. Eeek.
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